最疼的

亲人过世

而心疼的，并不是他

而是年老的阿嫲

眼前的她

还不知儿子已不在世

谁都不忍心要告诉她

心疼

却无能为力

只能祈求观音娘娘

大发慈悲

让阿嫲能坚强地度过

心真的很难受

对别人说

只能让别人也难受，难堪

所以也只能对着无亲的部落格说

有时

真的很希望

心能坚强多一点

因为

脆弱的心

一点点事

就真的碎了

The First Day

I always believe in good start..

That is where I gain my confident in everything..

However..

Things don't always turn out the way u wanted it to be.. (most of the time ><")

the more u want it.. the uglier it will turn out to be..

The first day of class start with the our Dean Briefing..

As usual.. the "talking"

the same thing repeating for the last 4 semesters..

but I actually appreciate that he is willing to spend his time to motivate us with his words..

although sarcastic much.. but encouraging.. hah..

The last class was briefing of our selective..

That is where the nightmare begins..

when situation happens..

that is when all the masks are taken away...

ugly side of the human beings unfold..

selfishness and greed pouring out from every soul

prepare to grab on the opportunity for their own sake..

As far as i have live..

and especially in Malaysia...

i have understand how to spell Unfairness...

there will never be fairness in this competitive world..

the only things that we can do..

is to always maintain out integrity, self respect and principle..

For survival of the fittest says..

fairness is never an option..

u will need to fight in order to survive in this cruel world..

One day.. Man will even eat their own child if there is no food left in this world..

Pathetic as it seems..

this is the reality..

靠自己

真的 很想 让自己 再坚强 多一点点

爱自己多一点点

我想

我应该 不会那么地 难受吧

Down by illness

No matter how strong you are..

when illness strike in

u will come down...

Resolution of 2011

As a 21 years old, I should be setting myself a proper resolution..

start with something small so it wont be hard to accomplish..

but always setting a resolution for the whole year will be kinda hard.. ><" especially to maintain that goal..

So.. in 2011..

Think positively will be my first major resolution! Even though everything went out bad..

Nothing lucky happen to me.. I still need to think POSITIVELY.

positive positive positive positive positive positive

Be angelic and always do good.. within my own abilities though.. Except for those who takes

advantages on me or other people..

angelic angelic angelic angelic angelic angelic

2 will be enough and hopefully i will be a better person by the end of the year..

Happy New Year everyone!!

当你有千万个疑惑。。

你会怎么做？

等答案来找你？

还是， 一一去寻找答案？


当你做了些后悔的事。。

你会伤心难过, 责备自己？

还是勇往直前， 不吃回头早？


当你变成一只迷失的羔羊时。。

你会希望有人为你指路?

还是自己有本事， 闯出一片天下？


当然。。

如果我不是身在其中。。

我都会理智的选择后者。。

以为自己很强。。

但。。

一旦自己碰到了。。

面对的，却都是前者。。



一直都在告诉别人。。

要往好的方面向。。

自己却做不到。。

多可耻呀。。



有时真的很羡慕别人。。

哪来那么强的意志力，战斗心，自信心。。



夜深的宁静。。

实在让人又恨有爱。。

爱，因为她让人能宁静地思考，做事。。

恨，因为她让你顿时觉得好寂寞，好伤感。。

I know i CAN!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

let me like what i'm doing now.. i know i will like it.. this is happening and i must accept..

please let out all the negative thoughts and start instilling all the positive thoughts..