22th of september

another 4 weeks left to the end of my semester 1 of bpharm..
cant really foresee it last time..
kept remind me about the tarot reading in TARC..
wonder whether is it that accurate and true??
what will it predict again if i go n ask again..><
but afraid to know about the answer to my doubts..
afraid that every prediction will come true..
dilemma...

some part of me enjoying the life i'm now..
some part of it.. keep grudging..
some part of it keep holding me back..
when all the mix feeling come simultaneously..
that will be the time i really wanna see u..
yet i dont know how to tell u how i feel..

i duno whether i can go through this for the rest of my life..
i need confidence
n assurance...
continuously...
to get through every bits..
i really do hope that i'm doing ok..

~peace~

13th of september

suppose to be studying pharmaceutical organice chemistry for next week quiz.. but the gloomy weather outside just makes me feel moody as well.. ><><
i'm easily influenced byt he environment..
music to be exact..
sometimes weather
sometimes stress..
stress will be more significant that makes me moody for the past few weeks..
realised that u need to completely fall in love again to a new thing..
it is like falling for another guy again..
and i really hate that kinda feeling..><
fortunately, i'm learning to love what i'm doing now.. thanks...
pls just makes me love it more n more n more n more.....