Freaking Cold..

Malaysian 365 days full of blazing sunlight, makes me don't feel like going out after all the hardwork of makeup and dressing up. I don't want my hardwork to melt just right after I step out of the door.

Glasgow has the worst weather in the UK according to one of my friend. Now even the sun is shining, you feel the chills going into your bone with your jacket on. I still thought it was summer until my a phD lab mate told me now is already autumn!

Averaging around 6-8 degree. Quite hard to imagine 24 hours staying under an air con room. I used to wish for that some time ago I guess? I wonder which Malaysian never wish that before? 24 hours air con condition! How nice is that right? Especially when we are in bed. ^^

But it is not the case here. When it is too cold, I can't feel my fingers, nose and ears. It makes me have headache sometimes and I can't breathe properly because my nose is very dry and cold. You need to wear so thick when going out and when you reach to the lab or restaurant, you need to take everything off again. I can't imagine during winter time. haha. But I should not be complaining instead be contented to everything I have. hmm..

I guess I will miss the weather here when I got back Malaysia in 2 months time. Hopefully I have the chance to experience the Autumn in the UK.

Where the Road Goes..

The title is copyrighted by a photographer. 

It is a really nice phrase to me. 

I used to be a person who plan what I want to be, what I want to do and how I want my life to be. 

But sometimes, thing do not always go the way you want. 

It might also turn out worst than you thought. 

It happened to me, few times in my 23 years of life. 

At time, you really feel like giving up and losing faith in everything you do. 

I dont have a strong religious belief and this make me even harder to accept the challenges given. 

Fortunately, with the adequate number of years of education that I had. I'm able to think rationally and go through the distance. 

Hence, here I am today. Though not consider successful but has life quarter of life almost to the fullest. At least I have no regret. 

I have learned to not to be too adamant about certain things and try to let go. Why do you even want to make yourself frowned with something that doesn't make a big deal in life? If it is not a matter of life and death then it is not a big deal or issue to me now. 

When you feel like doing something and the group of people oppose to your opinion. The old me will follow unwillingly but act to enjoy myself very much. That does not mean you have friends, but you force to be happy. End up, there is actually none of the friends who really understand your needs. The new me will just go the way I want, go new places, meet new friends, meet new people. Why enclosed yourself to a circle of people where you can actually know the whole world? Who knows you might found the circle of friends who know your needs and have the same interest as you? 

Where the road goes. 

And where it will take me. 

I shall go along the path and live my life from it. 

Life give you lemon so make lemonade. 

Don't complain that the lemon is sour and you might up starved to death. 

And I tweeted about how pissed about people who complains a lot. 

Yes I really am. 

I will not tell them off but will just keep quiet. 

Instead of complaining, think of what you have actually done to overcome the problem. 

Or why dont you think of a solution before the problem occur? 

I do not know what are they thinking but all I wanted is to get as far away from them when they are complaining. 

They spread all the negative energy and atmosphere which is very bad for me. 

I prefer to stay with positive mind and people if not alone. 

Then I can have a peace of mind without those non-stop blabbering shit. 

The photos are taken by Mei Fern Chong, a young inspiring blooming creative photographer, ready to join in the photography world. She explained her concept to me patiently and is really friendly to me although we just talked through online. The shooting day, we got to know each other and even though I'm no professional model, she tell me how to pose and cooperate with me quite well. I really feel very comfortable working with her and she is like a friend to me. Maybe because we are the same age and stay quite near to each other? Somehow I felt lucky to have photoshoot with her. The photos came out so dreamy and lovely. Make me look so lovely too! haha (that's the most important to girls right? haha to look pretty!) and photographer plays an important role! 

Days of waiting

Dripping drops by drops..

When the vial is full I will change another one and fill it up again.

Now Is the 26th vial..

I saw another phD student still collecting after the 138th vial..

No wonder they need 3 years to do their phD.

After the vials are collected, they will be let to dried in a fumehood.

And will run TLC the next morning when everything is dried up.

The Tedious part is waiting for the filtrate to drip drop by drop.

Hope days of waiting will come to an end and something will appear on my spectrum.

DAys in Glasgow..

Finally got our access card to the lab. We no need to wait for the supervisor everyday outside the reception. Everyone will be wondering why are these 6 Asians doing everyday sitting on the couch every morning! In Malaysia, we always look at Ang Moh like we never see them before. Now I know how the Ang Moh felt already.

This is the place I will be working for the rest of my days in Glasgow. It is very spacious compare to our lab back in IMU. Maybe because the people here is lesser and there are only phD students in their lab. What is good is that we have a specific place for us to do our work and we don't have to always shift our stuff when we need to go off. Hopefully everything will go on as planned and finish on time. *fingers cross*

Look what I have found outside our hostel!! Pink roses!! Very huge pink roses!! I have never seen such beautiful roses in my life! Can you imagine if the whole garden filled with all these gorgeous roses. That will be my dream for the perfect wedding deco. HA! 

The roses are half as big as my face! Pardon my messy hair! The wind was so strong! Once it was so strong it almost moved me when I was standing. Scaryyyyyyyy.... I shall eat more!! To avoid being blown away in Glasgow!

This is a typical weather of Glasgow.. Sprinkle rain, they called it. It is not like in Malaysia, they called it pouring rain. Glasgow has the worst weather in the UK. It can be sunny and raining at the same time or sunny in the morning, sprinkle in the afternoon and sunny again in the evening. So, it is always wise to bring a waterproof jacket or umbrella along whenever you are out. 

Herbal chicken soup with button mushroom. When you are far far away from home, that is when you will be forced to know how to cook. No matter how bad your cooking is, everything will turn out to be edible in the end! But fortunately, Janet brought a lot of packet soup and we just need to prepare the ingredients, then throw everything inside the pot, add in the packet herbs. Woahlaa!!! That is what you get! and it tasted good too! So nice to have a pot of hot nice soup in a weather like that. 

Ben & Jerry's Ice cream is quite famous here. I have never try that before so we bought one and have a try. It cost 1 pound more expensive than Haagen Dazz. Somehow this flavour still tasted okay to me. Not amazingly tasty. It tasted very milky though. Not so sweet compare to Haagen Dazz Belgium Chocolate. Will try other flavour when this one finish. 

Another view from my room during different time of the day. It is nice to stay high from the ground because you can just sit there and admire the breathtaking view from the room. During the night, you can see the city light shimmering from the windows, and I will be wondering what the city people still doing there? Partying? Chilling? haha I will never understand because I have curfew. Yes I have curfew and I have already used to it. I miss home actually and really hope to get back soon. I thought I can live alone far away from home but actually I'm not. Even I have friends with me but I still miss the company from close one. Maybe because too free I guess? If very busy, things might have different. 

Anyway, Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim Friends! Wish you all have a happy holiday and have a safe trip balik kampung! 

Love

When v r young.. Love means two people admiring each other so much that we need to see and be with each other 24-7..

But as time goes by..
Love means something totally different..
It will no longer be sticking together, hugging and kissing each other..
But are enjoying the company of each other when together..
Sharing ur everyday thought and hope for the best for each other..
There are times when silent can be so romantic just because the love one is just sitting beside or lying beside you. And both of them just appreciate the company.. Thinking how blissful to have each other as soul mate..

As a couple.. There is no who sacrifice more or who loves more.. Who should do this or who should do that.. It is the compromising and understanding that matters.. Who say guy should always pay for the gf? Who say gf should always be fetched by their bf? Can all this be reversed? Haha.. Sometimes we might be complaining about how imperfect our other half is.. But when you see an old couple living for years together.. How they support each other in their life and never give up on each other.. You will be grateful about your other half..

And yes I am..