everyone has a secret..
so i'm not an exception either..
but i do share it with someone i trust..
told 3 persons so i guess this is not a secret anymore..
feel guilty about commiting it..
i think it is not right..
but i cant help it..
if i dun do it.. it wont be fair..
i do care about it.. i care about anything that is related to me.. even if it's not for my own benefits..
but when it is only me who care..
i started to think..
think that why i wanna waste my time ?
why i wanna waste my effort?
instead i could have use that time to spend with my love one..
isnt that better?
i have my own time too..
doesn't mean that i'm the person in charge.. i'll have to carry all the responsibilities..
anyway..
this is all jus grudges.. because i have already made a decision..
jus cant get over my guilt.. shit.. mus learn more from him .. be strong!
thurday got test la wei.. ><
somemore subject that i hate.. not dislike u know.. is totally hating it!
but they always say that the more u hate it, the more u cant get it.. ><
so i decided not to hate it until the end of the test..
i love stats..
mom jus ask me how was studies...
my answer: "ok lah...."
hmm..
i know she wan me to get more than 3.9 coz can discount 30% from the tuition fee..
i know i should study harder in order to achieve that..
but somehow..
i dun really care much anymore compare to last time..
i really duno why..
it's like i started to live life easily..
not taking studies that seriously anymore..
but that does not mean that i will start to ponteng la..
jus mayb i wont give my 200% when come to preparation for exams...
somehow.. i think that a good thing.. which i wont stress myself tat much anymore..
no more migraine..
no more gastric..
isn't that better?
haha
syok sendiri to ask myself not to study so much.. ><
haihz..
i guess mayb i realise that sometimes, things jus dun go the way u want them to be..
although u already planned them..
but accidents do happen...
plans do change..
people do change..
what can we do is to look at the bright side..
smile and smile and smile..
although u heart is breaking..
tears is falling...
jus SMILE..
that was what i did..
and i have come this far..
i love me..
thank you...
