when the world turn black..

i prayed hard not to close my eyes..
but tat was beyond my control
and before my vision gradually narrowing down to pin hole size..
i realised..
that i miss everyone..

all my 20 years of life i wonder..
whether as a daughter..
as a sister..
as a grandaughter
as friend..
or girlfriend..
as a student..
have i done enough to make other's life better?
disappoint them?
it is not for me to judge myself..
but i wonder..
that moment was a reminder- i thought- for me to start appreciating my life more..
life may be long for someone..
but not for everyone..

a half libra and half scorpio i am...
to forgive and forget will require a lil hard work as scorpio is a revengeful person..
but according to my boyfie..
i'm a good person who aren't calculative..
hmmm...
m i?? doubt..
for now i will start to be a more angelic person..
however tat is not the excuse for anyone who wanna bully me ar..
if u did tat on purpose.. i will be more evil den a devil..

dream..
people say just follow your dream..
well..
my dream..
i dont think i will be able to reach it..
being a simple person and live a normal life..
will be my new dream..
being under the limelight is not my thing...
and that hinder a lot dream being reached..
so.. jus breathe.. breathe and do ur thing..
every second ticking away..
before the world turn black..
remember every faces around you...

it is just week 2.. take it easy..

it already week 2..
gosh gosh...
and the lecture notes are starting to pile up..
sigh.. pharmacy is hell of a course i tell u..
along the way of getting to know how a medicine work on u..
one needs to know every single detail relating about the medicine..
and this involve plenty amount of chemistry and biology..
not those in form 5..
....
....
not only tat..
we need to study the human body as well..
well..
tat's so much to know and so little time..

why??
why holiday i were so damn free 'growing mushroom' in the house??
but when classes start all the activities come pouring in..
gek sei ar~~~~~~~~~~~

~dean's word~

our dean is a very cute guy..
my definition of 'cute' is not orlando bloom that kinda cute..
appreciate his effort to cheer us up in a boring room..
anyway.. cut the crap about how cute he is..
he lectured us for more than 1 hour..
and said that he will be doing the same thing at the start of every semester..
T.T

i have taken his advice and did wat he told us to do..
i vaguely remembered the one i did in sem 1..
but.. i guess it doesn't matter coz it failed..
><

so hopefully this one will work out..
*last sem was a roller coaster ride for me.. struggling.. torn.. every awful feeling that u can imagine.. i had it altogether in such a few months.. finally the last 2 months.. i came to realise that things weren;t as bad as i thought.. and start to keep back on track again .. hard work paid off i guess with second upper class.. almost to first.. yet.. i felt satisfied not because of the result but because of the passion.. i can feel it getting stronger.. thank god..
this sem.. i wish to be more focus and prioritise more on my studies.. no more negative thinking.. study hard and play hard only after the end of sem.. hopefully i'm able to reach my target.. *

sem 2.. loading...

finally..
after 1 and a half month living like a zombie..
it is time..
to get back on track!!

so..
gotta go to bed now..
lim ee lin..
dun always sleep late ler..
face is getting disfigured if continue to be like that..
!!!!!!!!

GOOD NIGHT PEEPS!!!
A NEW DAY HAS COME!!!

farewell '09 hello '10

2010..
new year
new challenges..
everything seems to be new ei??

skimmed through all the new year's celebration photos in FB..
not to deny that i really have some urge to have some fun and throw my mind off a bit
yet i find myself not a party person..
wat a boring dude..
aiks..
guess lazy could sum up my personality a bit??
hahaha.. tat's the reason behind all the being-a-good-girl-at-home thing in me..
another new year celebration with family..
hahaha..
while all her peeps were partying crazily welcoming the brand new year...
but tat is not a bad thing either rite?
spending memorable time with ur family..

flashing back 2009...
no big deal..
difficult times r more than happy times..
grateful that i got through them..
learnt some mistakes..
made a bunch of new crazy friends..
still keep in touch with old crazy friends..
enter a whole new world of health care professionals..
start learning to be a nerd..
.......

welcoming 2010..
a fresh start..
this year will have to learn to set my resolution..
o.. i'm 21 this year..
oh god.. 21... 21..21..21..21..21..
key to freedom..
haihz.. but i guess my key to freedom ain't gonna make any difference...
i still hate going to club..
still hate partaying all night long ..
anyway,,
back to the resolutionS..
1. exercise at least once a week.. (exception on exam week)
2. fb less studies more..(this is hard..T.T)
3. forgive and forget
hehe.. ^^

may 2010 be a good year to everyone..
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!