Is that really matters?

long time ago..
i used to be very happy with her

but is a her right
in the end she still need to find a Mr Right
well
i found first

but i always being told that when ur BFF has a bf
they will change and will not be the same anymore
i wonder whether have i change too?

no one told me
so i assume i'm not?

i dun usually tell people off if i dislike their attitude
especially if that person is my female best friend
and she dun used to be like that
i know
when u got urself u guy that u fall for
u will follow almost everything he do
just to get on the same path with him
trying to have everything under the sun to have common interest together

but some act just annoyed me and almost driving me to the wall
yet i know if i tell
that will definitely leave a scar to our relationship
that's the ugly part of being honest sometimes

in the end
ask myself
is that really matters?
ur own feelings or
ur relationship with a friend that has been so dear to you
for so many donkey years

what really matters?