当你有千万个疑惑。。

你会怎么做？

等答案来找你？

还是， 一一去寻找答案？


当你做了些后悔的事。。

你会伤心难过, 责备自己？

还是勇往直前， 不吃回头早？


当你变成一只迷失的羔羊时。。

你会希望有人为你指路?

还是自己有本事， 闯出一片天下？


当然。。

如果我不是身在其中。。

我都会理智的选择后者。。

以为自己很强。。

但。。

一旦自己碰到了。。

面对的，却都是前者。。



一直都在告诉别人。。

要往好的方面向。。

自己却做不到。。

多可耻呀。。



有时真的很羡慕别人。。

哪来那么强的意志力，战斗心，自信心。。



夜深的宁静。。

实在让人又恨有爱。。

爱，因为她让人能宁静地思考，做事。。

恨，因为她让你顿时觉得好寂寞，好伤感。。

I know i CAN!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!

let me like what i'm doing now.. i know i will like it.. this is happening and i must accept..

please let out all the negative thoughts and start instilling all the positive thoughts..

Is that really matters?

long time ago..
i used to be very happy with her

but is a her right
in the end she still need to find a Mr Right
well
i found first

but i always being told that when ur BFF has a bf
they will change and will not be the same anymore
i wonder whether have i change too?

no one told me
so i assume i'm not?

i dun usually tell people off if i dislike their attitude
especially if that person is my female best friend
and she dun used to be like that
i know
when u got urself u guy that u fall for
u will follow almost everything he do
just to get on the same path with him
trying to have everything under the sun to have common interest together

but some act just annoyed me and almost driving me to the wall
yet i know if i tell
that will definitely leave a scar to our relationship
that's the ugly part of being honest sometimes

in the end
ask myself
is that really matters?
ur own feelings or
ur relationship with a friend that has been so dear to you
for so many donkey years

what really matters?

Once

like it or not..

time waits for no one

instead of angry at someone useless

or upset over something that is not worth for

why not go on with your life?

afterall

we only live once..

listen

ONCE!

My Pink Memory

I lost my pink sony ericsson phone.. ><"

dun really wanna go through all the details..

but i really wanna curse that stupid restaurant..

anyhow...

i still miss my phone.. ><"

how i wish u will come back to me someday..

He said...

He said,
" someone once told me that if u operate business and sell things that u love the most, u will surely make profit.. but i cant think of anything that i love the most beside u.."

my heart stopped at that very moment..
din react that i really melted with his words
he din really said that to make my day
it was just an everyday conversation
but..
that phrase really stays in my heart
like
forever

just as simple as that

i wanna let you know that

you made my day

I LOVE YOU

2010 orientation

sorry guys.. no picture yet
not really free to search for photos cause i was not the one who took photos..
not really a cam pro..
so i'll leave the jobs to our beloved photographers..

just to leave some thoughts after the two weeks intense dance training and few months of preparation for the sake of our fellow juniors
not sure whether are they appreciating all of our hard work
but i do hope that they had fun
apparently, i dont really know much of our juniors.
cause i'm just the secretary.. >< aiks..

orientation started with grouping of 12 groups, with the combination of all courses..
creative group cheers and flags..

and ended with a superb nights of performances- Masquerade Finale Night
well..
did some performances..
not totally great but memorable.. ^^
go Q-do and Skywalker...
we do not have dance background but with the courage and hard work.. we did give our best performance..
A very much thanks to our Sifu-s : Miss Evoney Sha and Yen luan.. ^^

however...
the end of fun means the start of hell..
with all lecture notes piling up..
and the coming PBL, portfolios, lab reports and stuffs.. make me write this post without even checking for the second time..

so i guess that is the update for my first 2 weeks of uni life..
so long ~~

it is not always about yourself

living with a bunch of nice people
is really nice..
^^
makes u feel like at home..

however
my begining of semester 3
start with strenous dance practises and orientation
nevertheless
time spent together with those dance crew are priceless!
how often u get to do that??
exhausted
but appreciate much

many thanks to Evoney and Yen luan
the Sifu-s
if arent's for them..
we are not what we are on the stage
the time they sacrifice in order to teach us
especially evoney..
never fail to attend every practise and helped us..
even during the holidays..

hopefully we will not let u down
and make u guys proud!

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feel f**ked up?
think again..

have u been considering thinking in people's shoes when you wanna put the blame on them?
is it only all about you?

eyes..
they can observe

everyday
many pairs of eyes are judgin you

as for me..
i see life..
i see betrayal
i see a lot "nice" masked devils

i see also love, loyal and genuine saints
use those eyes on yourself as well..
you will see
"flaws" and "flowers" around you too
so when you desperately need to point the finger at someone
think again

we are not perfect after all
who are we to jugde others?

Be mature

new habitat..

Although i'm at home now..
but i miss it so much..
i knew i will definitely be homesick..

i miss my bed, my table,
my bathroom
my TV!
and my internet.. !!

by the way..
i'm going to spend my weekdays in condo opposite my uni..
hopefully everything going on well..
and let the new day begin!!!
semester 3
GO! GO! GO!

Heart

While the earth is turning round and round
million thins are happening at the same time
war, disaster, oil-spilled,economic crisis
smaller one like birth, death, sparation
conflicts, tought time
they force people to change
mean, cruel, heartless
in order to survive
this is human
strong one

While some people indulging in a five star restaurant for a tea break
some people are dying of starvation
yes
as ironic this world may be
wondering is God seeing any of this
but admit it
this is human
selfish one

While you are nice to people who you think you can trust
you will never guess that they are the one who will be ruin your life
backstabbing
this is human
proud one

Be overwhelmed with what humans can do
they can create wonders
they can also create disasters

be careful when you are around with humans
they are friends
they can also be foes
Even though they claimed to be the one that love you the most or
the one that you can count on

God granted us with the most powerful gifts
The mighty brain
The tremendous mind
but
most of us din realised that God also granted us with a lovely gift
The heart
which is stong yet fragile

To my friends out there
when you think life is tough
when you think life is sucks
when u said FML
when you thought you are all alone
with no one else to turn to
there is always a place to go
which is your heart
believe it
follow it
and it will surprise you..

nothing..
just decided to give my dear blog a new home..
awww..
love the flowers..

i just love flowers..
and found out that i actually love daisies.. ^^

wanna know how daisies look like??

seems like most of my friends are having their holidays now..
so with this photo of daisies..
i wish all my beloved peeps..

Happy Holiday everyone..

getting through it

ha..
another semester faded away..
a fast semester though..
everything seems like it only happened yesterday..
a month before the next semester starting..

every start of something..
have been telling myself to keep par in everything..
but by the end of the day..
everything failed..
aiks..
what a 'snake' i m..
not a good effort this time..
hopefully next sem will work much harder..
ciao~

EOS is coming to town...

whenver i log in to facebook..
will c complains about exam stress piling up my home page..
i also wanna complain..
but i dun feel comfortable doing that in public..
mayb one ot two times is ok..
more than that kinda annoying at times..

with the exam stress.. afraid about not getting good grade and stuff..
stimulate the excretion of hormone leading to eruption of breakouts on my face..
feeling insecure and lower my self-esteem..
everytime i look into the mirror..
stress double up..

pray hard that i will get through this..

have you ever felt this way?

there are times that i feel so lonely..
even when there are a lot of friends around you..
but.. when i look around..
i don't feel like i belong to anywhere else..
this is the worst feeling i ever had.. and it makes my day bad..
try to talk.. but nothing came out..
and felt like it was not a good time to talk..
i always feel that i can live without friends or company..
but eventually..
when i visualised that situation..
i will become very afraid of being lonely..

but life still goes on till my last breath even if i dun belong to anywhere..
so move on move on...
the only person that i can count on is myself..
yet mentally i'm so weak..
sigh sigh sigh...

i'm a girl lol..

girl i'm..
of coz will feel a bit envy lar..
but.. gotta accept wat i have
though sometimes i feel tat i'm not getting enough..
the truth is..
it is really not enough..
but i should be thankful and jus take what is given right?
right?????
right????
right????

i really hope i'm right and please dun throw any tantrum... please...
i hate the choking feeling on the throat..
makes me cant speak properly..
so please.. forgive and forget...

Taken..

a fren of mine is leaving for a better future..
yeah i know it's a good thing..
but why it has to be always the time when i'm already so close to her?
o i sounded gay..
><
it's kinda hard to accept..
when i'm already in a comfort zone..founded someone with the same click..
and thought of sharing almost anything in class..
all of sudden.. she is leaving..
this is not the first time..
and i bet it will also not be the last time..
you can say that i already have a BF.. but BF will never replace BBF..

anyhow..
i wish u all the best.. take care and good luck..
~Tey Sue Anne~

Rosalynn Carter said...

" You have to have confidence in you ability, and then be tough enough to follow through."
quoted Rosalynn Carter.

Rosalynn Carter, wife of the former president of the united states Jimmy Carter
first lady of the U.S from 1977 to1981..

another 'new year' coming to town

ha.. chinese new year.. there is so many new years goin on in m'sia since we have a multi racial society..
speaking of chinese new year..
all i can think of is food food food.. omg..
no more yoga and swimming makes me more flabby and tummy starting to find it's way out of the jeans..
aikss... it's always hard to be a girl..
one can spend hundreds of ur dimes from head to toe..
from hairdo to pedicure..
inside to outside..
lingerie to jackets..
i wonder how much have i spent on myself..
too bad i'm a girl..

away from the CNY..
i have some feelings to spur here..
have you ever feel that, sometimes.. it's hard to please everyone?
when u pleased everyone.. by the end of the day..
u r the one who r left exhausted.. and tired .. w/o any sympathy..
it feels good whenever i have helped someone..
but when your own things are jeopardized by helping others..
should i be a bit selfish and walk away or i should still be there and help?
sometimes it is just hard to decide whether to do or not to do..
i guess life is like tat...
mayb i'm afraid of being hated by anyone..
but i come to realised that ..
we really cant do much to pleased each and everyone around you..
so while i hav my own life too..
hope people out there can be more understanding
life will be better that way..

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEEPS~

when the world turn black..

i prayed hard not to close my eyes..
but tat was beyond my control
and before my vision gradually narrowing down to pin hole size..
i realised..
that i miss everyone..

all my 20 years of life i wonder..
whether as a daughter..
as a sister..
as a grandaughter
as friend..
or girlfriend..
as a student..
have i done enough to make other's life better?
disappoint them?
it is not for me to judge myself..
but i wonder..
that moment was a reminder- i thought- for me to start appreciating my life more..
life may be long for someone..
but not for everyone..

a half libra and half scorpio i am...
to forgive and forget will require a lil hard work as scorpio is a revengeful person..
but according to my boyfie..
i'm a good person who aren't calculative..
hmmm...
m i?? doubt..
for now i will start to be a more angelic person..
however tat is not the excuse for anyone who wanna bully me ar..
if u did tat on purpose.. i will be more evil den a devil..

dream..
people say just follow your dream..
well..
my dream..
i dont think i will be able to reach it..
being a simple person and live a normal life..
will be my new dream..
being under the limelight is not my thing...
and that hinder a lot dream being reached..
so.. jus breathe.. breathe and do ur thing..
every second ticking away..
before the world turn black..
remember every faces around you...

it is just week 2.. take it easy..

it already week 2..
gosh gosh...
and the lecture notes are starting to pile up..
sigh.. pharmacy is hell of a course i tell u..
along the way of getting to know how a medicine work on u..
one needs to know every single detail relating about the medicine..
and this involve plenty amount of chemistry and biology..
not those in form 5..
....
....
not only tat..
we need to study the human body as well..
well..
tat's so much to know and so little time..

why??
why holiday i were so damn free 'growing mushroom' in the house??
but when classes start all the activities come pouring in..
gek sei ar~~~~~~~~~~~

~dean's word~

our dean is a very cute guy..
my definition of 'cute' is not orlando bloom that kinda cute..
appreciate his effort to cheer us up in a boring room..
anyway.. cut the crap about how cute he is..
he lectured us for more than 1 hour..
and said that he will be doing the same thing at the start of every semester..
T.T

i have taken his advice and did wat he told us to do..
i vaguely remembered the one i did in sem 1..
but.. i guess it doesn't matter coz it failed..
><

so hopefully this one will work out..
*last sem was a roller coaster ride for me.. struggling.. torn.. every awful feeling that u can imagine.. i had it altogether in such a few months.. finally the last 2 months.. i came to realise that things weren;t as bad as i thought.. and start to keep back on track again .. hard work paid off i guess with second upper class.. almost to first.. yet.. i felt satisfied not because of the result but because of the passion.. i can feel it getting stronger.. thank god..
this sem.. i wish to be more focus and prioritise more on my studies.. no more negative thinking.. study hard and play hard only after the end of sem.. hopefully i'm able to reach my target.. *

sem 2.. loading...

finally..
after 1 and a half month living like a zombie..
it is time..
to get back on track!!

so..
gotta go to bed now..
lim ee lin..
dun always sleep late ler..
face is getting disfigured if continue to be like that..
!!!!!!!!

GOOD NIGHT PEEPS!!!
A NEW DAY HAS COME!!!

farewell '09 hello '10

2010..
new year
new challenges..
everything seems to be new ei??

skimmed through all the new year's celebration photos in FB..
not to deny that i really have some urge to have some fun and throw my mind off a bit
yet i find myself not a party person..
wat a boring dude..
aiks..
guess lazy could sum up my personality a bit??
hahaha.. tat's the reason behind all the being-a-good-girl-at-home thing in me..
another new year celebration with family..
hahaha..
while all her peeps were partying crazily welcoming the brand new year...
but tat is not a bad thing either rite?
spending memorable time with ur family..

flashing back 2009...
no big deal..
difficult times r more than happy times..
grateful that i got through them..
learnt some mistakes..
made a bunch of new crazy friends..
still keep in touch with old crazy friends..
enter a whole new world of health care professionals..
start learning to be a nerd..
.......

welcoming 2010..
a fresh start..
this year will have to learn to set my resolution..
o.. i'm 21 this year..
oh god.. 21... 21..21..21..21..21..
key to freedom..
haihz.. but i guess my key to freedom ain't gonna make any difference...
i still hate going to club..
still hate partaying all night long ..
anyway,,
back to the resolutionS..
1. exercise at least once a week.. (exception on exam week)
2. fb less studies more..(this is hard..T.T)
3. forgive and forget
hehe.. ^^

may 2010 be a good year to everyone..
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!